Thursday, July 12, 2012

God, are you there? It's me, Lauren.

Haven't we all at one point asked ourselves this question? All you have to do is just insert your own name.

Truthfully and honestly, I've had to ask God that a lot more come here lately.

I feel like I'm failing in so many areas of my life right now, and I've had to search out his grace a little harder... grace from him, and grace in which to give to myself. Why is that so hard?

This summer I have spent so much time at the beach. It's where I can sense him, touch him, taste him, and it's where I feel closest to God.

On Saturday a couple of weeks ago, I just went to the beach by myself, ALONE. It was just my chair, music, drinks, book, and the sand and ocean right in front of me and quiet.


So much has been swirling in my head right now that it's been hard to get it down on this blog when I haven't even been able to process it all myself.

I've been doing a lot of self-examining, working on relationships in my life, figuring out what's important to me and what's not, and just doing alot of soul searching from the inside out. I've been spending a lot of wonderful quality time with my family this summer and it's been great, and making time for those friends that matter most to me, but also making sure I make that time for myself and the stillness and the quiet that can offer us so much, when the summer seems to be such a crazy and busy time.

 So when we ask "God, are you there?" .... The truth of the matter is, he's always there.


And when you find him, you'll always find grace.