Monday, June 14, 2010

What kind of mirror are you looking through?

I had all intentions of doing a weekend recap today. But felt lead to write about what’s on my heart.

Yesterday I made last minute dinner plans with a great friend of mine for yesterday evening! She called me up and said, hey I have free time today, want to connect. And I’m so glad I said yes.

Let me give you some background. Every friend that God has brought into my life are so unique and different and wonderful.

My friend Kaysey is a precious precious person. She’s a 36 year old African American woman of God. She has a 14 year old son. We couldn’t be more different but yet our hearts our connected and we first met through a mutual friend. She makes me laugh so hard. She speaks life into me and encourages me. We don’t get to connect as often as I’d like, but when we do my love tank is full.

So we met up around 6:30pm last night and didn’t leave the restaurant until 9:30pm. I seriously wish it could have lasted longer. And it’s safe to say that 99% of our time together was talking and just sharing our hearts and lots of laughs.

She really just takes the time to listen to me and instills so much wisdom in our conversations and what I have to share with her. I was talking with her about some of the struggles I am dealing with right now and really she just encouraged me and let me know that everything is going to be okay.

One of the things I’ll admit right here and now is that one of the struggles I face at times is enjoying the life God has given me 365 days out of the year. It’s a flaw. I might seem like I have it all together, but I don’t. No one does. I have a hard time enjoying life when things are not going the way I think they should and according to my plans. I’m finding myself constantly questioning God and his plan when that’s not my place. He doesn’t need my help. But it’s getting that knowledge from my heart to my head. I’m robbing myself of precious time I can never get back. Kaysey really just encouraged me that I have got to stop doing that.

Also, one other struggle I face is loving myself and seeing the positive versus purposely seeking out and pointing out all my flaws. It boils down to having a struggle seeing myself as a child of God at times and in the same mirror as he sees me. Why is that so hard? It’s something I’m going to have to continually bring to him each day until I get better in this area.

Show of hands please, because I’ll take comfort in knowing I am not alone in these areas. We can be people of faith and still struggle from time to time in these areas, or maybe a lot of times!

I say all that to say this, I left my time with Kaysey feeling so much better than I found myself walking into that restaurant.

So I woke up this morning to turn on Joyce Meyer. The lady reads your mail. Or maybe God does, either way, today’s message she had was one of those “you talking to me moments” and it blew me away that God would know exactly what I needed to hear this morning. Her message was on loving your life and loving yourself!

Ummmm, coincidence, I think NOT!!

So, today, enjoy your life a little more and break the old mirror and get a new mirror (and I'm going to try to do the same) and I would ask, do you love that person looking back at you?


Adorably Distracted... said...

awww i'm glad you have such great people in your life! I always tell myself to enjoy today for what it is and what i can make it be instead of dwelling on what isn't right!! Easier said then done! i know!

Rebecca Jo said...

First - love your openess & honesty!

And girlfriend, you are so not alone. I almost think the more we try to be closer to God, the more Satan will try to attack us & try to make us feel that way. I know I have questioned God, doubted God, told God He was wrong (how funny is that one) in many cases...

Praise the Lord there are people like your friend that you can sit with, laugh with & help bring you back to an understanding of who you are in Christ... awesome!

Jordan said...

Thank you for sharing, Lauren!

Barbie said...

God is so good to send us such wonderful people to surround us and remind us of His love. Blessings to you!

Jacquie said...

I always appreciate your honesty. And you're NOT alone... I think you share your insecurities with TONS of women.

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G. HUBBARD said...

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