I go back and forth between sad and mad. Everyone assures me it's okay to be mad.
Honestly, Cancer can suck it, that's what I say.
This is our life, our reality right now, and it sucks.
Our anger, confusion, and questions...it doesn't take God by surprise.
This is my venting place. I thank God for this little space where I can dump all my emotions and thoughts, especially during times like right now.
I hate seeing cancer take over the brain of a once vibrant man who now struggles with the simplest of things like brushing his teeth and getting in and out of bed. Ask him about details of his day and he can't remember. He's so weak right now but we know where our strength comes from.
We shouldn't have been talking around the dinner table last night about arrangements for Larry's memorial and what songs he would like. It just doesn't seem fair. We're still continuing to believe for a miracle, but at the same time know God could have other plans.
I hate this for my Mom, I hate this for our family.
Cancer. You suck.
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