Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Stuck.

Read a blog post yesterday that I haven’t really been able to get out of my head since. I look forward to reading every single blog post of Amy’s. She had an amazing post about Squandering the Gift. Please go read. As a single person her blog really blesses me. Ironic because she’s married, but seriously, just read this post, she has amazing perspective. She always challenges me.

Anyway, I got in my car yesterday and I had a text message from Monica, one of my good friends… Along with that text came a sweet picture that I knew it was just a matter of time I’d be seeing. It was a ultrasound picture with “WE’RE HAVING A BABY.”

This is Monica and her husband Greg.


I was in her wedding almost two years ago this month! Hard to believe.

My first reaction was to be thrilled and I TRULY am. But you can’t help but feel like you’re being left behind with each and every person that is getting married, and then when you hear baby news, it’s like a double whammy. Seasons of life change, and sometimes I feel like I’m in this season all by myself.

I couldn’t think of a better word other than it just feels like you’re stuck.

It’s like everyone’s life is moving on around you, and you’re stuck in this perpetual game of waiting. But God is always an “on time” God.

I’m learning to take this time and receive it as a gift. I had never really thought of it that way until I read Amy’s post.

Lord, with each “I’m engaged announcement” I see, or “I’m pregnant” announcement I hear, please help me to not squander the gift of this season I’m in right now. It shouldn’t be a season of feeling stuck, but should be a season of great expectancy and hope that your timing is always perfect.

So, if you’re feeling stuck like I am, I encourage you... Please go read Amy’s post.

You may feel, well… not so stuck.

But with that said, have to give a BIG congrats to Monica and her husband Greg. They are going to be amazing parents!!

7 comments:

Girl in Carolina said...

Yes, I think this every single day of my life, even though I try not to. I have been there. Throughout my 20's and now my 30's...with every heartache of a relationship breakup that I thought would finally be "The One." It's pretty surreal actually because I thought at this point in my life I would be a mom raising a family. But sometimes God and life have other ideas for our life. Still waiting to find out the plan :)

Great post friend!

Aishlea and Brandon said...

This is a great post, too! I read Amy's yesterday and it was really good!!

I'm praying for you...and I know that you have not squandered your gift because you always look for the bright side and the lesson in things. :) I love that about you!

Jacquie said...

Love this post, Lauren... and I loved Amy's as well!

Rosie said...

Congrats to your friend Monica for being blessed with pregnancy. I too felt a little stuck when we were trying to conceive. It seemed like everyone I knew was married and already having kids. But from watching my sister who had her first child and got married at 30, I truly believe that there is nothing wrong with being behind in the marriage/baby department. She is so happy, and I know that your time will come when you least expect it.
ps. How is EHarmony going?

Rae Nolt said...

I KNOW that feeling of STUCK! For me, I always felt like God just made me wait. And wait. And wait. I really know nothing about your story...but I didn't get married until I was 29. God didn't bring my husband into my life UNTIL I was 29. LONG wait. THEN, we wanted kids right away and I had a terrible miscarriage that make it hard to get pregnant again. Once again, I had to wait. I STILL don't know WHY God allowed my husband and I to WAIT to get married, but I DO look back on my singleness with great memories.
Thanks for the post!!! I'm off to read Amy's now...she's a new blogger for me! ;)

Melissa said...

Friend, I am 100% with you. I feel stuck and feel like people look down on me because I'm not yet a mom... like "what is wrong with her?" But I agree, Amy's post made me realize that God is making me wait for a reason... and perhaps He is making me wait until He sees me enjoying this season. I am trying hard to enjoy it now that I realize that is what He wants. So difficult... but so needed. Thank you for this post! xoxo.

Krystal said...

Great post!! I'm in the same season as you. I'll be 29 later this month and I'm still waiting for it all to happen. But, I'm going to start really enjoying this season of my life and just let things happen!! (I thought I was doing that but maybe I should try harder! HA!)