Why does the mind always feel like a battlefield?

It doesn’t take a rocket scientist to discover that the huge battle wages in our mind and in our thoughts.

What direction is our mind taking and where are we placing our thoughts?

I have to ask myself this daily.

Joyce Meyer has a book called “Battlefield of the Mind.” And isn’t that exactly what it feels like?

It’s like we’re in a constant battle and have to have our guard ready for when the enemy declares war.

I’ve been in a major struggle for sometime lately and I know a large majority has to do with where my thoughts are placed.

I started school in May 2006.

Here we are in July 2010.

And guess what, I’m still in school.

Has it been easy? No.

Have I always enjoyed the almost hour ride to and from three nights a week? No.

Has my heart always been 100% into it? No.

On the flip side...

Is this where I’m supposed to be? Yes.

Have I met some amazing people and friends along the way? Yes.

Will the sacrifices be worth it? Yes.

Will the tears shed have been worth it (oh, I have cried)? Yes.

And that’s just it, there’s always a positive.

It is so hard to picture life outside of school because I’ve been at it so long. I know in the end no one is going to ask how long it took me to complete it, but just the sheer fact that I completed it will be all I’ll need.

There are still times when I doubt if I can do this. Times where I lose sight of how far God has gotten me in this journey, forgetting how much he has blessed me along the way. His hand has been on this from the very beginning, and his hand is still there.

My motivation has been lacking. Doubt has been creeping in. I’m just tired and worn out and frankly just want school to be over.

But I still have a job to do, and a bright future to look forward to.... and that job is to finish the task that God has put before me. He opened this door for me. A chance to have a career I can be successful at, and now it’s up to me. How badly do I want to get through that door and how hard am I willing to work to make that happen?

The mind, it’s a HUGE open battlefield.

BUT I can and I will do this.

I don’t know if any of ya’ll are like this, but I tend to be afraid of success and I think that’s holding me back. Kind of crazy and it doesn’t make sense, but it’s true.

From hereon out I will no longer surrender to this type of fear! The enemy will no longer have control over my mind and thoughts in this area of my life.

I just needed to write this down for myself today. And hope it encourages someone along the way who battles with the same thing!

And my God will supply all my needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to me in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:19