Monday, April 19, 2010

So Long Insecurity!

I am one who has always struggled with insecurity in one way or another, and I’m sure the rest of ya’ll have as well.

So it’s not by accident that this weekend I will be heading to Atlanta to hear Beth Moore speak on her new book “So Long Insecurity.”

I’m praying in advance that God will open my eyes while I’m there to insecurities that have been deeply rooted for as long as I can remember and that he’ll start removing them one by one.

Insecurity #1
I have never been one to be completely 100% comfortable in my own skin. And within the past few months or so I have put on a few pounds that I’m not proud of. I don’t exercise like I know I should and I think to comfort myself, I eat. I hate the fact I do this. I don’t like to do this. It’s not the amount of food I’m eating, but it’s the junk that I’m putting in my mouth. I want to take better care of this temple that God has given me… but I just can’t seem to find my way out of this vicious cycle. There’s always someone that is going to have better hair, better body, flawless skin, and etc…. But I try to remember that I am fearfully and wonderfully made and created in his image.

Insecurity #2
I’m at a place in my life where I didn’t envision myself being. I’m 25 years old and I know that’s still young, but in a world where everyone my age is getting married and having kids, you can’t help but feel there’s something wrong with you that you’re not. I’m still in school while the majority of the people I know are done and past that stage and onto the next season of life. And I long to be in that next season.

Insecurity #3
When other people I come across seem to have it so together, confident in who they are, have found their niche in life, and I am so not where I need to be yet. I’m getting there but in the meantime being around those types of people make me insecure.

Insecurity #4
I love to people please. I am devastated if I feel someone doesn’t like me or I think they don’t want to be my friend. I recently had someone take me off their friends on Facebook and it hurt me. That’s just an example. I’m insecure when I feel others might have more friends than I do or if I feel excluded from something, then I’m crushed.

Insecurity can manifest itself in many ways! But I so desperately want to be secure and content with every area of my life. God’s intent for us is not to live a life of insecurity. But it all starts with being confident and acknowledging who we are in him. And I’m still a work in progress. As Joyce Meyer likes to put it, I’m just a “cracked pot.”

So, just wanted to encourage you today that if there’s any form of insecurity in your life, just know that you are not alone. And I encourage you to pick up this book… and if there’s a church near you that is doing this simulcast of “So Long Insecurity” this weekend, go join in on it and kiss those insecurities goodbye!


Aishlea and Brandon said...

Me, too.... I have a basket full of insecurities!

But I am SO excited for this weekend!!!

Melanie said...

I completely agree with you! I read this book, and honestly, it changed my life. I am still a work in progress but the book really called attention to some of the lies I have been telling myself. I have so many insecurities too, and I'm praying for you as well that God will free us from the burden of these lies and help us to see ourselves with His eyes!

Btw, I just have to say that you are absolutely beautiful, and for someone like you to come out and say 'hey, I have insecurities about my looks, weight, etc.' is really a wake up call for others. We can't judge one another on outward appearances because the girl who we think 'has it all' might be dealing with the same insecurity that we are. (Preaching to myself here, sorry...) :)

Sorry for the looooong comment. Love your blog! Have fun in ATL and keep up the great work!

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Spicy Magnolia said...

I am so excited for you to go to Atlanta this weekend!! I hope to go to a local church to watch the simulcast, but wow, being there in person will be awesome. I pray you lean into the Lord continually as you give Him these insecurities you shared with us today. He sees them and knows them, and I am thankful for you and getting to know you more through the blog world. :) You are precious!

Becca said...

I'm going to be there! :-) let's meet up!

Katie said...

just wanted to assure you that we ALL have insecurities...lots of 'em...and you aren't alone :0

Jordan said...

We ALL have insecurities! If someone says they don't, they are so lying. I really need to finish this book ...

Garrett and Meagan said...

I love this. I might have to grab this book!

Paige said...

Praying for you! I hope God moves and speaks to you in a powerful way during this time with Him.

Faith said...

I can so relate. I am praying for God to bring complete victory in these areas for all of us!