Tuesday, May 10, 2011

My life plan.

I’ll be turning 27 one month from tomorrow.

Gah, how did I get from early 20s to creeping into the late 20s? Frankly, it scares me. Not the age so much, but scared as to how fast time is going by. Honestly, not dreading the 30s because word on the street is they are way better then your 20s. I feel like the 20s are tough because you're still trying to figure out who you are. Well, at least to me it feels that way.

I had an interesting question asked to me the other day. I was with a friend and we were in conversation and she said, “So, what’s your life plan?”

Um, what? My life plan? Like what my plans are for dinner kind of plans?

But deep down I knew what she meant. Such as, where do I want life to take me. What are my dreams, hopes, goals, and aspirations for my life.

I've thought about that question ever since.

I’m almost 27 years old and I had absolutely NO idea how to answer that question.

Sometimes I feel like I’m just trying to get through each day, and can’t look beyond that.

I’m in court reporting school which is taking me far longer than I expected. And scared to death of the student loans that I’m going to be faced with.

I’m in a job that I’m blessed to have, but know it’s not going to be my “forever” job. And at times questioning God as to why he has kept me here for so long. I feel like my season was up forever ago, but guess not.

I’m not married.

Obviously no kids.

Still living at home.

Still trying to work my way to getting financially secure and working one day at a time at that.

All the while wondering what direction my life is taking. So I think of that question, and I’m left thinking, forget my plan, what’s God’s life plan for me?

And still trying to figure that out.

I think of the lyrics to a particular song by the christian group Mikes Chair called "Someone worth dying for"...
And I wanna believe, I wanna believe
I'm not just a wandering soul
That you don't see and you don't know

And one other truth I know:

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11


Jenny said...

Great post!

Turning 26 in Feb scared me to death! And honestly I don't know why!

I am now looking forward to my

Hope you have a fantastic week!

Belly B said...

We all feel that way. I don't think there's anyone out there who is SO sure of their life plans and got it all figured out at any age. Good luck and take care! :)

<3 Belly B

Trina said...

Girl, don't I know this. ALL of it. I'll be turning *cough* thirty four *cough* next month and time is just really flying. And I still don't have my life plan all figured out.. I've come to the conclusion that as I pray about my life's direction all I can ask for is the next step and then wait. Ok, Lord, lemme know when to take that next step...

Becca said...

Glad you're remembering truth and I'm excited to see what God has ahead for you - I'm sure it's something amazing!

ourhomeinprogress said...

I just turned 27 and just so you know, I still feel young! :) We are spring chickens, baby!

You can take comfort in the fact that even though you don't necessarily know what your plans are - GOD KNOWS. and he is right there holding your hand!


Perfectly Imperfect said...

I figure the best life plan, isn't really a plan. I had all sorts of "plans" for my life and God laughed at me and took me in the complete opposite direction!! I'm still trying to figure out where He has me headed!! Keep at it girl. You're still so young!!

Kendra said...

Amen Sista!! He has a PERFECT Plan for you!!!

Callie said...

God has big plans for you!!

Rosie said...

I think it's ok not to have a plan. I couldn't figure my plan out when everyone was pressuring me to, and things have just fallen into place. HE has his own plan for you and it's so great that you see it that way. Just keepin living your life, and things will work out!
Love ya!