Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Back to the future.

This past Sunday I had the opportunity to try out a new church we’ve wanted to try and it’s relatively close to the house. So we woke up Sunday and said why not try out the church.

Have you ever had a time in your life where you just knew it was by divine appointment? Where everything aligned just right and you knew you were at the exact place you needed to be at the exact moment you needed to be there?

Well, this was one of those times.

Like seriously, the moment the praise and worship started, the tears were flowing.

The message was phenomenal and had me on the edge of my seat the whole time. It was the very first teaching on a series the Pastor is starting called “Restoring you back to your future.” Really the whole message was based on when people don’t have vision, they go back to their past, and not to their future. They played a clip from the movie Back to the Future which just really reiterated and drove the point home.

There was so much to chew on, and seriously the service almost lasted 2.5 hours and I never looked at the clock once. By typing these words I really can’t do it justice.

I don’t have a hard past. Our family has been through a lot, but the Lord has really guided and protected me to make the right decisions and to live with a mindset of “what would Jesus do?”…

But for me when it comes to my past, it would have to be the area of old mindsets and thought patterns that like to creep up every now and then that I haven’t fully dealt with, that if I let it, can keep my from my future. The future God has for me.

I’m going to be honest here; it took someone who I am in great relationship with to call me out. I didn’t see it within myself, but I have a tendency to be judgmental. Judgmental not in a sense where I’m harsh, but in a sense that if I’m put in an environment or put in a situation where I’m around people whose belief systems and lifestyle do not align with mine, I can get very very uncomfortable. And it can hinder me from meeting new people and forming new relationships. I’m learning all this is okay, but to do it in such a way where you’re not compromising. I NEVER want to have a holier than thou attitude. I didn’t realize it, but I was being judgmental without even knowing it and can affect a lot of areas of your life. And I’ve learned that sometimes I speak when I just need to keep my mouth shut.

Wow. What a moment for me. God revealed a lot to me. Hard pill to swallow, but necessary.

I’m kind of getting off track here. But there are so many areas as far as thoughts and mindsets go from the past that like I said, if I let it, can hinder my future.

The biggest point that was stressed during the message is sometimes God has to take you back…, to get you to your future. Does that make sense?

Oh, how I wish I could explain this adequately.

Anyway, suffice to say, this is just one of many areas of our life which can hold us back.

I left that service knowing I had to do a mind and heart evaluation. I have to continually pray each day that my thoughts will align with his and can withstand the times when those old ways like to creep back in. I pray for clarity and vision in the areas of my life I want to change.

And I know day by day he is restoring me back to my future.

I’m not saying this to get on my soapbox. But this was a moment of truth and such clarity for me and thought it was worth sharing.

Who knows what God is doing by me attending this church, and this church is not my home church, but I’ll be there for the rest of this series if anything.


Katie said...

Lauren, there is not doubt you were there for such a wonderful reason! Isn't it amazing when we get to see GOD working like this?

Love love the race with the watermelons. That is hilarious. So proud of you.

Trina said...

Don't you love those God-appointments!?

Good post friend :)

Mrs. Jones said...

God is amazing. Love your post - I'll say prayers for more wonderful blessings! :-)

BARBIE said...

God is so good, isn't He? So thankful for this experience and for what He is doing in your heart.

Heather @ Mrs. Southern Bride said...

I love having moments like that in a church service. Oh, I love your thoughts on thinking ahead to the future and not the past....that is SO TRUE. Happy Thursday!