Thursday, April 7, 2011

Sometimes you just need a good cry!

This post is about to go deep, real deep.

The last time I posted on Tuesday, that was a rough day. Can I just be vulnerable with you for a moment?

I found myself driving on the way to school and I just burst out in tears. I’m sure everyone who passed me on the road thought I was crazy. I had some heavy stuff weighing on me and finally I had just reached the breaking point and the dam opened.

We’re all made to love, and we crave love. There are certain relationships in my life, family relationships and people that I know are not going to change, no matter how hard I will it. It will truly have to be the hand of God that changes the people, the situation and circumstances, and not my own hands. I have a VERY hard time letting go of things and hold tighter than ever to the burden of it all. The Lord says his yoke is easy, and his burden is light.

Get that through your thick head, Lauren.

So, I sat in my car with the tears falling down my cheeks, I verbally say out loud… “Lord, take this, because I can’t do it anymore. “ That was the most freeing moment.

I’ve also come to realize that when it comes to family, and any relationships, when we are choosing to live a life for Christ and your value and belief systems do not align with theirs, it’s a struggle. A big struggle. A hard struggle.

I knew the day I chose to live a life for Christ, follow after him, seek him, and live a life pleasing to him, that it wasn’t going to be easy. Actually, following Christ is probably one of the hardest things we’ll ever have to do. With that said, it’s one of the easiest things to do and the reward is SO great.

I know I have been set apart as a child of God, as his daughter. And I’m daily trying to see and view myself as such and find the value in that. No earthly love or acceptance can match the love and acceptance we have in the knowledge that we are his. God chose me. He saw those tears. He saw me in the car driving that day and counted those tears.

You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in Your book”
(Psalm 56:8, NLT)

And along with that knowledge comes everything the world, people, and Satan like to throw our way. He says in this world we will have trials and tribulation, but take heart, because he has overcome the world. Amen for that!!

I guess I could have bypassed all this and summed this post up in one sentence…

Sometimes you just need a good cry!


Aishlea and Brandon said...

Girl, we all need a good cry every now and then. And I'm the same way. I am a people-pleaser at heart and it is hard to have situations where there is tension, etc. I get it and I deal with it daily. I don't know why I can't get it thru my thick head that I don't have to carry that burden or worry about it, either! :) Love you!

Michelle (michabella) said...

Oh proud of you for giving it to God. It's so hard to just let go and let Him. I struggle with it all the time! Praying for you!

Are we still on for Sunday?! Do you go to church by yourself? I was thinking maybe I could join you? :)

Rebecca Jo said...

The book I'm reading has a lot about that passage in it...

I was reading where water in that time was so precious & to offer tears to God - for him to keep them - its a giving of yourself to him. Cool though, huh?

Life is hard sometimes & all you can do is just have that cry... & then wipe off that face & let God carry you on another day! <<<>>>

Mrs. Jones said...

A good cry and acknowledging we need Him is 99% of the battle. Wishing you a wonderful day friend!

Rosie said...

I'm so sorry you are going thru a hard time right now, but it's so refreshing to know that you are leaning on Him. If you trust in Him and have the faith you have, then He will bring you thru it.
And yes, sometimes it's nice to have a good cry.
Love you friend!

Terri T said...

So proud that you handed everything over to God and that you can be so honest about it! I find myself struggling with these same things A LOT so it's nice to know I'm not alone :)

GracieNbalsMommy said...

the control freak in me has such a hard time doing just what youre talking about. i constantly find myself asking God to please just take the situation and have faith in the fact that the way things end up are as he wants them. But that little part of me still just worries and worries and over analyzes. Stay strong! Nothing wrong with a good cry!

BARBIE said...

I am thankful that you were able to release your heart into God's hands. None of my immediate family is saved, with the exception of my husband and children. None of my siblings or my parents understand my relationship with Christ. Sadly we aren't close so there isn't much conflict. But I am working on allowing God to bring us closer so that I can share His love with them.

Trina said...

Oh girl, I know exactly what you mean!!!

This part especially:
"I’ve also come to realize that when it comes to family, and any relationships, when we are choosing to live a life for Christ and your value and belief systems do not align with theirs, it’s a struggle. A big struggle. A hard struggle. "

I cried last night too lol

nadina said...

thank you for this post ♥

Annie said...

a good cry feels good sometimes hun. i forget that at time and hold too much in.
i'll be thinking about you sweet girl. i hope you have a great weekend!

basketball said...

May those tears soon turn into ones of joy as God reveals more of His purposes to you! I stumbled across you blog and have been hooked by your honesty, humor, and sincerity. I love seeing another single gal out there living above all else for His glory! Your posts have been most encouraging in my life, even enough to get me to install the couch 25K on ipod! Praying for your life and writing to continue to be use powerfully in the lives of others! Thanks for sharing!

~Beth @

Jessica @ Acting Adult said...

Oh its so hard sometimes, I know. Crying is cathartic! Just sorry yours came in the middle of the road. That must have been fun to deal with!

Spicy Magnolia said...

You are precious, Lauren! Keep pressing into Jesus and His truth...He loves you so!! Hugs to you, sister.