Thursday, June 4, 2009

Just one of those days...

And the day is only beginning!

Today I just woke up with a heavy heart and on the brink of tears. In fact, I did shed a few tears!

Do you ever feel like the world is going on around you, it's almost like you're in a movie and you have absolutely no idea where you're going. That's kind of how I feel right now.

At one point I just cried out "Lord, just show me the bigger picture here."

Everything right now is just kind of overwhelming. My sister is heading off to college this month, and my mom which I haven't shared with ya'll yet is going to be getting married next month, so she's starting a whole new chapter in her life, and most of my friends and the people I know are done with college, in their careers, married, have kids, SAHM (stay at home mom), and etc. And frankly, I'm ready for my next chapter. I'm ready to turn the pages of the book. Really, I'm just ready to be done with this book and move on to the next one, ha!

I feel like all my life has been about for the past few years is school, work, and just trying to keep my head above water and waiting for the next best thing to come along and at times failing to realize that God has me at this particular place in my life for a reason and it's not going to be forever.

God is really going to have to show me a good dose of contentment because right now I'm just not feeling it. At times I feel like I am and then there come those times like this morning where it just hits me like a ton of bricks and it throws me for a loop.

I'm so incredibly blessed. I've never lacked. God has given me a wonderful family who loves me unconditionally and I couldn't picture my life without them. I have amazing friends that I'm thankful for each and every day. I have job security when many people right now don't. I have a home, food in my stomach, clothes on my back, and money in the bank (it might not be much, but it's something). So why the heck am I complaining, right?? ha!

But it's just one of those days....

Do any of you ever have these kind of days? It's almost like we have to because the Lord allows these moments so we can shift our focus back on the blessings when all you want to focus on are the things you want changed! So I ask, what helps you through these moments?

And just feeling so uncertain of what my future holds, but this I'm sure... I know the one who holds my future!

Not to mention it's that time of the month, so that might have something to do with it too, ha! :o)

I'm opening comments...

9 comments:

Rebecca Jo said...

I think anytime CHANGE happens, it brings a sense of "fear" ... we dont know what the unknown holds (obviously) but that's where you just have faith that God is in control.... He's not going to let ANYTHING bad happen, even through all the changes your world is going through.

I always love the words from the Goo-Goo Dolls: "Every new beginning is some other beginning's end"

HUGGING you friend! Love you!

Adorably Distracted... said...

I think we all have these days. Maybe the bigger picture is that if you can feel the way you feel today and realize you don't like it, It'll make your life feel great when you find what you are looking for!!

You need rain to see a flower right?

I hope your day gets better!

Nichele Lynn said...

Having those days ALOT lately. I've been praying for you everytime I have one of my "moments" becasue I know our situations are so similar. I always tell my mom, "If God would just send me a picture of my life in ten years, I'll be fine. And I'll wait!" I think alot of us feel like this in our 20's. Just know you're not alone, and I'm thinking of you! Love you, girl!!

Heather said...

I know how you feel...sometimes you just feel stuck in a rut and just waiting on the next big thing. We've been talking about timing and control in my small group lately and you just need to remember that God's timing is not the same as your timing. But that doesn't mean he doesn't have wonderful things in store for you! Just keep that optimistic smile going and feel blessed each day to know that God is planning great things for you!

stepfabulous said...

Had I known then - what I know now........... Excitement, be excited about your future, consider the unknown "enticing", relish the known. Your whole life is ahead of you.......... and in time it will happen. We all have these moments, in our teens, in our 20's and I promise you in our 30+'s. It just gets better - different - harder - but so much better and so worth the wait. Give yourself some "me" time and pamper yourself my bloggy friend - that always helps me outta my funk.

Bailey said...

I feel like this a lot too- and I definitely think the time of the month has something to do with it. I go from being so incredibly happy and excited about my life to feeling like I am missing out on things and I want to run away screaming. But when I get like that, I really do just try to focus on all the good things in my life, everything I have to be thankful for, and how happy those things make me. And a little retail therapy always helps =) So funny that you posted this today and Kelly posted what she did... He works in mysterious ways! =) Sending you lots of bloggy-friend hugs, across the miles!

Jarvis Noelle said...

Lauren...I found yoir blog by way of Kelly's Korner, but I've had many of those days, but God is so faithful. He hears us, and He always knows what to say...you'll have good news to share before you know it...stay faithful!

Kelsey said...

Just know I'm praying for you, Lauren!

Staci said...

Oh Lauren, I think you jumped in my head and copied my thoughts! I've just been so blah lately and, like you, am so desperate for the next chapter!!

All in God's timing!