Saturday, July 5, 2008

The start of a blogging journey!

Hi- Welcome to my little corner of the world! Thanks for taking the interest! I know quite a few people who have blogs of their own and think it's a great concept and a good alternative to Myspace and less time consuming and still a great way for family and friends to keep up with me and what's going on in my life.

So I'm sitting here on a Saturday afternoon still in my PJ's. Yes, I would say that we are all allowed PJ kind of days! Although I do know that I need to get my butt in gear because I have school work to do, trying to delay the enivitable, ha :)

Yes, hopefully, only one more year left of school to go, LORD WILLING, and then the wonderful world of Court Reporting awaits. I'm so ready to get out from behind a desk and be out in the career field. I'm just right now trying to keep my motivation at an all time high when it comes to school. It's hard, it really is, when the end seems so near but yet still feels like forever away. It's been a journey that only the grace of God has been able to carry me through. I never would have thought I would be traveling down the road to becoming a Court Reporter, but I am so glad I have chosen this path, and there have been many tears along the way, and doubt and fear of wondering if I can really do this, if I can really succeed, and in many ways, I think I've been afraid of success, as strange as that sounds. The fear of the unknown when I get out of school. And two years into school, I still have feelings of self-doubt, but I daily have to wake up and chose to press past those doubts, and realize that I owe it to myself to succeed and be the best Court Reporter I can be.

The fear of wanting to relocate to Nashville, TN, from this little town of Leesburg, FL, but not knowing how I'm going to get past that hurdle, in making that dream a reality. Nashville has been on my heart for as long as I can remember now. Every license plate, every mention of the world TN, makes my heart skip a beep. I know it's God talking to me, and I don't want to ignore the voice. People might think I'm crazy, leaving everything and everyone I've ever known and my checkbook might say I'm crazy, but I truly feel like if this is God, then he will pave the way. I feel like there's something bigger out there that's way beyond this little bubble that I'm in. So many dreams and aspirations in the heart of this smalltown girl that's meant for something so much more. I'm at the point where I completely want to be in the center of God's Will, whether that's in Nashville, or somewhere else. He knows what my desires are and I've made them known to him, but it's all in his timing, because it's perfect. So I'm at the place of complete surrenderance to him, and waiting on his direction, whatever that might be. Just taking it one day at a time. In the meantime, it's all about being content with where I'm at, and it's daily that I have to get up at of bed and strive to do that. I'm excited about the possibilities and what God has in store.

In the meantime, while in the midst of all this, trying to remain a strong relationship with the Lord. I admit, I'm one of those people that have a tendency to get so busy in the "doing", that I forget to simply just "be". So my prayer is that I can just have those sweet moments of sitting in his presence and just soak him in when daily my mind becomes so clouded on the tomorrows, and the future, that I miss out on the today. It's not for me to figure it all out, I just want to be here in the present, focusing on today, and what all today has to bring! God knows me through and through, and he knows the beginning from the end. So here's to living for today :)

More to come :) xoxo

Best of my heart,


Holly said...

I love to be able to keep up with you this way! YES!! We all need PJ days!!! We try and have one a week!
Thanks for sending me your link!!! Glad you joined the blog world!

Kubin's said...

Hi Lauren! I've come across your blog a few times and I'm not sure if I've ever commented. Anyways, I love your out look on life!! You defiantly have God in your heart and that's awesome. I wish I was more that way. I'm working on it!
One thing I like to do when I come across blogs I'm interested in is read their first blog post ever. Don't know why, but I do. Well as I was reading yours July 5 2008 it talks about how your dream was to move to Nashville TN. How ironic that your most current post I read today, is talking about you moving TN. I don't know much about you and I'm not sure what your most current post meant, but to me it looks like your dreams are coming true!!! How awesome!
I thought I would share that with you. Stop by anytime