Monday, February 25, 2013

I couldn't do it.



I couldn't do it.
 
I couldn't officially hit the delete button on this blog.
 
Writing, it is my passion.
 
You see, any card I'll give to someone, you'll find that I can fill the whole thing up with words. Back in school, signing a yearbook, I could fill up a whole page with more than just "see you next year, have a good summer."
 
Words, I love them.
 
My writing, it means something to me. I think about my words. I think about how they will impact somebody and what they will mean to a person. I realize that words stay with you longer than most anything else. They have the power to build up or tear down. They can bring such joy to the heart.
 
Words, they are powerful, oh so powerful.
 
Writing is how I express myself and it comes so naturally to me. Writing allows me to express myself and be myself in the purest and truest form I know how. It allows me to get down to the deepest parts of my heart with the tap of a keyboard or hitting the pen to paper.
 
Just a couple of days ago AGAIN had a friend say (and have been told this MANY times) "Lauren, you need to write a book, and you need to submit, submit, submit, until you get that thing published." And can't tell you how many times people have told me, "Lauren, you have such a way with words."
 
I deleted this blog about a month ago. When you delete a blog, it's not fully deleted until a certain amount of days and then it's gone for you to never get back again. I was in the shower washing my hair this morning and all the sudden I had this urgency and thinking to myself, "Lauren, you fool, what are you thinking? Get that blog back NOW!"
 
So I race to get done with my shower, and in my towel and I'm dripping wet rush to my computer to make sure this blog is still here. I took a deep breath realizing it still was.
 
This blog for me is no longer about the traffic it gets, the amount of comments, followers, etc. It means so much more than that to me now. Funny thing is I had a dream last night and God has already given me a title for this book. Who knows if and when it will ever be published, but this has given me a whole new excitement and passion for writing.
 
I feel like I'm back to the true intent of why I should be blogging.

I need this blog, just didn't realize how much until now.
 



12 comments:

Aishlea said...

OH my heart is SO SO SO happy this morning to read this! Missed you!!!!

Kristin said...

Oh yea for us!! I am so glad you are "back"!! :)

Rebecca Jo said...

YAAHOOO!!! I was so glad to see this. I understand the deleting social media things - but your blog is for you to write, vent, leave your memories. Its for YOU alone. So glad you didnt delete it! Your blog holds a lot of your history & growth in your words :)

Natalie said...

I write about what interests me and it is very freeing! Glad you are still in the blogesphere!

Erin said...

Welcome back home :-)

Jessica @ Wanting Adventure said...

I'm so glad you decided to come back!!! I love reading about your story, so yay for changing your mind!

Mrs. Jones said...

I'm so happy to read this. Let the writing begin! And share it with us often!

Mary Anne Gruen said...

My life makes my blogging choppy at best. But I've never been able to give it up completey either. Welcome back!

Paige said...

Great news! Always loved reading your blog. Welcome back!

BARBIE said...

So happy! Write on girl!

Jordan said...

I'm glad you're back!

Kenzie @ Life According to Kenz said...

What a relief!! I love your heart and way with words!!

You go girl!