Thursday, August 2, 2012

You can fool the world, but you can't fool your heart.

Well, hello there.

I honestly have no idea who reads this little space of mine anymore. Can I have a show of hands, please? Ha!

Truthfully, I'm going to just come out and say that 2012 has not been my year for blogging. I began reflecting and considering why that might be. A million things swirled around in my head and one major thing came to my mind.....

Frustration.

You see everyone has their own personal reasons for why they blog. I did not start my blog to have some big well-known fancy blog. I did it because I thought it would be something fun to do and I love to write/journal and somehow I feel better when I get my words and thoughts out there. It's theraputic for me. I never in a million years thought that I'd make some of the best friends through this way. That's been the biggest blessing of it all.

Somewhere along the way I became frustrated with the whole blogging thing though. I feel like people play the fools game. Portray themselves to be one way, but their heart speaks another and you begin to see the real heart of a person. I'm nowhere near perfect, but I have always prided myself on being 100% me when it comes to blogging. But reality is, people are going to put what they want you to see, it's their space after all. And it can be a big game of "Who's Who" in the blogosphere and popularity (in ALL forms of social media) and honestly, it makes me cringe when I see that. We're all in this together and safe to say I speak for all of us when I say that we all have a story to share and a voice to be heard. Whether some blog has thousands of followers or whether a blog has one follower, no one is greater or less than the other.

At the end of the day though, I hope I can be honest with the world and honest with my heart!

Who knows if those of you who might be reading this right now might be noticing or struggling with the same thing, but let me remind you:

It's your story. It's your voice.

Anyone feelin' me here? I'll get off my soapbox now.

19 comments:

Girl in Carolina said...

Love YOU. Because you really ARE you :)

Aishlea said...

Amen and Amen. We talked about this when you were here. I'm glad to see you back today! :)

Megan said...

I have been a blog lurker for a while!

I enjoy your blog becuase it feels so geniuine and true. Real life so to speak.

I have a blog as well and just got back into updating it. Hopegully I can stick with it this time because I love being able to look back and see what I have done.

hopeless domestic said...

I couldn't agree more! I feel that a lot of bloggers lose sight of why they started in the first place. Love this post!!

Todd and Courtney said...

You know how I feel about this. There are so many blogs I can not stand (and dont read anymore) because it's like they are trying to become famous. It's mind blowing. They wants you to vote for them, follow them, read their fake promo junk they "promote" just so they can get money, etc. Its just fake fake and more fake.

Im so glad we met thru blogging and that you got to the spend the night with us this past weekend :) See you in November!! Can't wait!

kjpugs said...

I feel ya, girl. I started my blog being bored in a newer city (Indianapolis then) and wanting to connect with others. I don't blog 100% for myself- I blog for the conversation it brings with others... helping them, learning from them, it also helps me. I hate the fake stuff though too. When every post is sponsored, what's the point?!

We need a meetup sometime soon too btw!!!

Linds said...

Totally agree! So glad to call you friend!

Meghan said...

I don't remember how I found your blog, but I'm glad I did. I appreciate your strength and honesty. Keep it up!

Kristin said...

Lauren I love your heart and transparency. You are an amazing woman and I think that people reading here see that and know it is "real" IRL! So I am still reading if and when you post! :) Have a wonderful Friday!!

BARBIE said...

I'm here! I'm here! I have always strived to be upfront and honest on my blog. I don't feel I can minister or encourage others if I put up a front. With that said, I am still peeling back the layers of my life. I am learning to be vulnerable, to open up myself so that others could encourage me!

a boy a girl and a pug said...

love it!! i have never felt anything but truth and honesty when i visit your blog! so blessed to have become friends with you through the blogging world. i struggle so much with being so transparent, but yet really striving to protect my family (faces, jobs, etc) i really pray that although my face isn't out there on my blog that my heart and laughter truly is :-)

This Is Stupid said...

Caring about my blog (in a consuming way) is something I had to give up many months ago. I wasted too many precious days worried about it, and too many precious hours reading other people's self-promotion :) It still is, and can be, a ministry and a way for me to practice writing. Ultimately life just has to be lived with Jesus and family as a priority! You are definitely authentic and I appreciate that.

lovejoy_31 said...

I found your blog when your stepdad got sick. Unfortunately I know how horrible brain cancer is as my mom was diagnosed, went through treatment and died w/n a four month span last year. I try to stay out of the popularity contest that some bloggers go through and really try to just blog what I know and love.

Immeasurably More Mama said...

I write for me...to record our memories. I like it that way. :)

Naturally Caffeinated Family said...

We love recording all of the fun memories for our families, friends (new and old :)), and for our littles to get to see when they get older! I have been very frustrated with blogging/twitter for a bit now, again, too, for many of the same reasons :( I'm trying to ignore the nonsense and remember what's important! :)

Unknown said...

I love that you are authentic and real and exactly who you are :-) you rock girl!

Unknown said...

My favorite quote is "Follow your heart but take your brain with you!!!". I look forward to following and reading your blog :)

Annie said...

i LOVE you lauren!! i just randomly read another blog (courney's) and saw your pic on it....I had to come check up on your blog! I love the pics of you on there with her kiddos, the pictures are adorable and you look so happy and beautiful!! Don't forget the fact that you have met so many awesome ladies from blogging! I feel blessed to have "met" you!! :)

Honestly, I never started blogging for the numbers and I still don't. I blog because I like it and I love meeting new friends. I've lost a lot of followers and gained some new here and there, I rarely ever read blogs anymore just one or two here and there every month. I don't have time anymore. I'd much rather focus life on my sweet C :) miss you though, glad we are FB friends!! XO

m. said...

right there with you, doll. this is a point of frustration for me too... I blogged before blogging was the thing to do, but now it's shifted into something entirely different, and honestly, most days, I just don't want to do it anymore. but there are things--like fabulous people, like you--who keep me here. ;)