The not so gentle cycle.

Are you ever seeking God for something and you sit there waiting for the lightning bolt to come down from the sky and give you all the answers?

To simply put it, God just doesn’t work like that.

How much time do we waste just stubbornly sitting there saying, God I’m not going to move until you give me some answers.

God wants us to diligently seek him out. Whatever the circumstance may be, he calls us to put our faith in to action, read the bible and search in scripture.

Gah, how stupid have I been? 

I came across this scripture this morning-

“Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God and the peace of God which passes all understanding will guard your heart and mind.” Phil 4:6-7.

He wants us to pray.

He wants us to petition him.

He wants us to present our requests to him.

And at the end there is peace.

I found myself walking around my neighborhood last night. The sky was a beautiful color of pink and purple. I found myself crying and saying out loud to myself demanding him “God, I just need some answers.”

I spent a majority of my walk crying. It was a woe is me hour walk I spent stuck in my own pity party. Kept thinking about this vicious cycle I’ve been riding on for awhile now in a certain area of my life. It’s a ride that God has been calling me to jump off of for quite some time. But somehow I’ve found myself comfortable just going around and around. Because if I jump off, what then? Then I’ll actually have to do something to change my circumstance. It’s up to me. It’s like there’s a fork in the road and I can go one of two ways…. I can go the road that brings forth changes, or take the road where I find myself hopping right back in the cycle.

You know how on a washing machine you have different cycles? Well one of them is gentle for delicate clothing, right?

Funny how we seem to be in a cycle and not willing to do anything to change our circumstances, but we have no problem saying, but God, just be gentle with me. You think in a situation where we’re clearly being disobedient that God is going to be gentle. No, it’s going to hurt, and it’s going to be painful when we’re not aligned with God. 

I’ve been disobedient. I haven’t been honoring God because when he says jump off, you better know he means jump.

He knows so much better than we do.

Time to put an end to the cycle. Do you find yourself in a cycle yourself?

It’s time to make the jump!